01 December 2014

想念

想念有心事就有对象倾诉的日子
想念不开心就有人陪我聊天的日子
想念可以不顾一切在他们面前哭的日子

我不知道我有多信任他们
但是大学里没有他们我过得真的很不快乐

那种依赖
那种信任
那种关心




不是我带着面具做人
我真的开始厌倦了交际的日子
厌倦了逗人笑的日子



可不可以回到以前
回到那个拥有他们的时候



28 June 2014

If it is your will

the feeling was so neutral when i heard that you're going to get into a relationship next year. I guess next year will be a very tough year for me. Second year without Jonathan without Sinyi i just hope I'll survive and i have to believe that I will.


If only i am not so hot-tempered. Being alone in this uni isn't a bad thing and i don't see any benefit of it either. Well at least i still love all of them. 


God i hand in our relationship unto your hands. At least, let me be a little bit special to him. not the awkward part, but the other way round. For he is special to me. Amen



At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

09 June 2014

by my side

The feeling is just so strange that i could totally feel the happiness whenever i see you
The care the love the annoying side of yours. Everything give me the natural feeling that as if it's ought to be like this. I hope i am special enough to be the only one who receive this. 

The photo of us are printed in my mind so clear as if we're like this when we get older and older. still fight with each other and i'll be the mama that takes everything easily and you're the grandpa who is so grumpy, but the love the care still remains even though you don't show it out . The photo is so vivid in mind. I guess everything started with that photo aite?

This is the only place that i could write like this. I guess everything takes time. including this relationship.



I don't want to say you're my kind
I don't want to say that you're mine
I don't want to tell you that
I love you more than life


05 December 2013

so this blog is officially closed. i guess. at least no one knows about this blog. finally a place i can write and vent everything i want.


you are too attractive. but im just a little girl to you. time flies. we are walking on 2 parallel lines, which will never cross over. its okay. im still your listener and you're still my little bear.

at times i really feel i don't understand you, or i would say i don't want to know about you.


you have the capacity but you're not filling things in. hurtful yet true. what's wrong with me. the goal seems further. what do i want? i don't know.


God
i want you

21 November 2013

魅力



习惯



晚安

20 November 2013

不想去猜测明天我会在哪里




我只知道很多事情我不想去管不想去懂
因为就这样让它去发生就算了



我的脑袋
谁都不想
什么也不想



会不会就这样过了我的三年
会不会就这样单身一辈子




07 November 2013

reality

出现在宿舍外面
只希望我能够见你一面
那是什么?
是偶像剧吗
是爱情故事吗



不是


你只是在挽留一些你已经失去了的东西


你失去了我对你的爱
我对你的关怀



我犯贱
我会去看你在别的地方会不会写什么
因为我想看你到底把我看得几重要
事实证明
并没有那么重要


生日快乐
这是我最大限度




吸引我的
不是你的外貌
是你的内涵


只是朋友
我知道



29 October 2013

对不起

对不起
因为我不小心喜欢上了你

对不起
因为我不小心伤害了我自己

那是曾经



可不可以
让我把你从我的世界里删除

可不可以
就这样过着各自的生活


我不想看到你
不想知道你的消息
甚至连你的名字
我也不想看到
不想听到




你是我的过去

我只觉得厌恶
真的
我很讨厌





怎么里面那么空
朋友我很多
原来
了解我的
还是不多



不需要
不需要




上帝
原来我需要的
是你




来救我



李慧颖
辛苦你了
谢谢你
我爱你
很爱很爱你

16 October 2013

be mine

staying in my room alone. something rare for me. haven't fold my clothes and hang the clothes. just got back from Pangkor Island yesterday .

 the moment when you switched off the lights and when i saw you sitting down there. self discipline, that's really in you. you're not the one that i want. brother, i should say.

feeling utterly loved in my hostel. people care for you. God is good. He taught me to give. don't have to give big. something small will do. 



though breezes, through the sea
move so pretty
you're all i see
<3 div="">

26 September 2013

it's been too long

life in UM has been too good. Thank God for His wonderful planning, as He gave me the best residential college (i think) in UM and the best seniors i could ever get in other places. oh oh oh and the best buddy!!!! There is this tradition in UM where everyone of us will have a buddy in our course. i have a buddy who treats me like her own sister. God is just too great


too much joy in me. wondering when will be the next time i be sad again. of course i hope it never happen but we know that is totally impossible. i just hope everyday i live in His way, doing things He wants me to do.

有时候,心里想的和手里做的是不一样的
或许我对你动了心
可是我知道自己在做什么



并没有那么重要




加油