05 December 2013

so this blog is officially closed. i guess. at least no one knows about this blog. finally a place i can write and vent everything i want.


you are too attractive. but im just a little girl to you. time flies. we are walking on 2 parallel lines, which will never cross over. its okay. im still your listener and you're still my little bear.

at times i really feel i don't understand you, or i would say i don't want to know about you.


you have the capacity but you're not filling things in. hurtful yet true. what's wrong with me. the goal seems further. what do i want? i don't know.


God
i want you

21 November 2013

魅力



习惯



晚安

20 November 2013

不想去猜测明天我会在哪里




我只知道很多事情我不想去管不想去懂
因为就这样让它去发生就算了



我的脑袋
谁都不想
什么也不想



会不会就这样过了我的三年
会不会就这样单身一辈子




07 November 2013

reality

出现在宿舍外面
只希望我能够见你一面
那是什么?
是偶像剧吗
是爱情故事吗



不是


你只是在挽留一些你已经失去了的东西


你失去了我对你的爱
我对你的关怀



我犯贱
我会去看你在别的地方会不会写什么
因为我想看你到底把我看得几重要
事实证明
并没有那么重要


生日快乐
这是我最大限度




吸引我的
不是你的外貌
是你的内涵


只是朋友
我知道



29 October 2013

对不起

对不起
因为我不小心喜欢上了你

对不起
因为我不小心伤害了我自己

那是曾经



可不可以
让我把你从我的世界里删除

可不可以
就这样过着各自的生活


我不想看到你
不想知道你的消息
甚至连你的名字
我也不想看到
不想听到




你是我的过去

我只觉得厌恶
真的
我很讨厌





怎么里面那么空
朋友我很多
原来
了解我的
还是不多



不需要
不需要




上帝
原来我需要的
是你




来救我



李慧颖
辛苦你了
谢谢你
我爱你
很爱很爱你

16 October 2013

be mine

staying in my room alone. something rare for me. haven't fold my clothes and hang the clothes. just got back from Pangkor Island yesterday .

 the moment when you switched off the lights and when i saw you sitting down there. self discipline, that's really in you. you're not the one that i want. brother, i should say.

feeling utterly loved in my hostel. people care for you. God is good. He taught me to give. don't have to give big. something small will do. 



though breezes, through the sea
move so pretty
you're all i see
<3 div="">

26 September 2013

it's been too long

life in UM has been too good. Thank God for His wonderful planning, as He gave me the best residential college (i think) in UM and the best seniors i could ever get in other places. oh oh oh and the best buddy!!!! There is this tradition in UM where everyone of us will have a buddy in our course. i have a buddy who treats me like her own sister. God is just too great


too much joy in me. wondering when will be the next time i be sad again. of course i hope it never happen but we know that is totally impossible. i just hope everyday i live in His way, doing things He wants me to do.

有时候,心里想的和手里做的是不一样的
或许我对你动了心
可是我知道自己在做什么



并没有那么重要




加油

01 February 2013

one is silver and the other gold

Had so much fun today. literally spent the day with my best buddy. and celebrated old friend's birthday. the fun we had just proves me that high school never ends!:D

I really can't bother anymore. be it a lie or a truth i just can't be bothered. So much of trust so much of fun just got spoiled. and it's all your fault. whatever it is i think i will really stop guessing and stop asking around. you have your life to move on and so do i. i'm totally fine with your decision of making use of me to achieve what you've been longing for. okay i know it sounds harsh but you have no idea how much i need to go through to make myself up to this stage.


happy February folks. this month is definitely going to be better than January.no more drama but more music. Chopin Beethoven and Schubert. :D



you can take everything i have
you can break everything i am
like i'm made of glass
like i'm made of paper
like a skyscraper

29 January 2013

what is this

what?

i have a bad habit of guessing (predicting?no i'm not a fortune teller) about what's coming up next. it's like you're the audience and when you watch a show you'll start guessing what's on next. and yeah i'm taking as if i'm the audience watching everything happens and guess the next scene. something irritating is i always get it right. since last year?

caring about you is seriously something i'd do automatically. God knows why am i so good to you. well i guess it's hormones taking it? so much of crying to each other so much of scolding and teasing each other, i guess this is something worth holding it right? we're so gonna be the buddy of each other.

i don't know why but are you comparing with me and you together? please there is nothing to be compared. i hope you understand this. my way of carrying life is so different to yours, at least i know my limit, but do you? making parents worried is something you do but it's definitely not mine. well because i know i have no right to worry bout someone when my parents have to be worried bout what am i doing am i right?

it's time to step out from the limelight, it's okay to be the cameo because without the cameo, the lead role won't shine.

LEE HUI YIN STOP GUESSING. IT'S NON OF YOUR BUSINESS.
after all you're just a bridge for them to walk across and meet.

so much of feeling heartache but you'll never understand. because that's you.


who do you think you are
running 'round leaving scars
collecting jar of hearts
carrying love apart
don't come back to me 
don't come back at all

27 January 2013

annoyed

pretty suits my feeling. well its totally how i'm feeling now

the reason i can write anything and vent my anger here is because i know no one reads my blog. well at least not this blog. but since my blogs are practically dead now so i don't think anyone reads it anymore. fine it doesn't matter

i got so pissed and annoyed. why would i get scolded when my intention was to just to accompany you and all i got was nasty words.

whatever it is i can't even tell about what's in my mind now. since the person i really want to talk about this matter to doesn't want to hear about it anymore and i shall just remain silent.

give me some peace that i want to feel and see and hear. no i don't vent vulgar word.